lallalalala..
just studied Log Mod finish.
like in.. erm.. 3-4 hours?
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AIYA! FAIL LIAO LAHHHH!!

i seriously need to move out soon. =(
cant study at all in this stupid house. and even if i go out and study. also cant study. outside the things distract me easily. very easily.
whenever i want to study in my room.. my bro would be slping.. then blah. i on light.. he kao bei. table light also kao bei. and its also tempting to just slp too.
so i tried to study in front of the comp. lOL~ i know its a mistake to do so. but somehow. kinda work.. listening to maksim cd. just nice my sis have to come and watch tv. so volume war.
she gave up. went in. wahahaha.
now everyone is in thier rooms. dinner is cooked. i went to take a look. wtf. forget it.
i'm not picky.. but.. seriously.. u look at the dinner.. u would also go.. WTF. and forget it. lOl..
no meat. no nothing. just plain yam. -_- yam with chilli is nice. but.. i'm sick of it. i prefer beehooon with chilli. =x

seriously cant stand my mom's constant nagging. nagg nagg nag nag nag nag nag. just feel like yelling at her.. JUST SHUT THE FUCK UP AND GO FUCK YOURSELF.
years and years of nagging from her. made me get pissed off whenever i hear her voice. the sight of her would even make me pissed. 1 fucking letter/word from her. sets all the alarms off in my mind. those using msn 7 beta.. theres this thing.. called.. guitar smashing.. FEEL LIKE TAKING IT AND SMASHING HER FUCKING HEAD. and beat the crap out of her head. yelling JUST SHUT THE FUCK UP. shjut up! shutup! DIE DIE DIE! DIE DIE DIE! DIE DIE DIE! DIE DIE DIE! DIE DIE DIE! DIE DIE DIE! DIE DIE DIE! DIE DIE DIE! DIE DIE DIE! DIE DIE DIE! DIE DIE DIE! DIE DIE DIE! DIE DIE DIE! DIE DIE DIE! DIE DIE DIE! DIE DIE DIE! DIE DIE DIE! DIE DIE DIE! DIE DIE DIE! DIE DIE DIE! DIE DIE DIE! DIE DIE DIE! DIE DIE DIE! DIE DIE DIE! DIE DIE DIE! DIE DIE DIE! DIE DIE DIE! DIE DIE DIE! DIE DIE DIE! DIE DIE DIE! DIE DIE DIE! DIE DIE DIE! DIEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE and taking the sledge hammer and HAMMERING AWAY on her head. and break her jaw or something. SHUTTTTTT UPPPPPPPPPPPPPPP!!!
god please install a off/on switch on her. PLEASE. i'll break the fucking switch and she will nv move or talk at all!!!!!!
oh yeah. i cant get well with any of my family members. 2 bitches and an asshole siblings. argh. the so called.. best relation i have is my dad. thats all. but we still do clash.
Dont talk to my siblings is the best.
Dont talk to anyone of them is the best solution.
but then again. they would still nag.
oh.. stupid sisters. didnt like them. not even thier friends. so fuck off if u want to intro them to me. more friends = more enemies. i like my ring of friends small. cant expect me to have 100+ friends. then half of them calling for help. WHO THE FUCK DO I HELP?!
i still treat my brother better though. i dunno why. coz he's stupid? =x get beaten up and still dont want to fight back. godwhyhesostupid. others might say he's smart to not fight back. but wtf. at least beat them back and let law take over.
The only thing why i still care for them when they get bullied. is becoz.. i'm pretending to be like a brother should be. argh. maybe i should just stop. and fuck it. =D why cant i have a younger sis? i'm fucking sure we can get along very well. and fuck care the other 3 siblings. wahhahaa..

oh wait. maybe i should put pw to this blog coz i know some ppl stated in here DO come and see once awhile. BUT DO U THINK I FUCKING CARE?!!!

hmmm...okay sorry.. kao bei-ing session over. such a waste of time to the readers.



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heres abit of the song lyrics.

Atreyu - My Sanity On The Funeral Pyre

Gestating in my heart as I spiral down.
And everything I touch is breaking
And it falls to the earth in splinters
Every shortcoming's a pitfall.
On my way to makin amends
Within myself to be (to be what I became).
Sometimes it feels like the whole wide world has made itself my enemy.
But I will stand upon my own two feet and raise, raise my head up.
When I pushed myself too far,
A dream of emotional perfection
Has left a wounded heart.
Trying to perceive the gifts inherent inside me,
Its like squeezing the trigger,
Its like opening fire
On everyone whos let me down,
On every beautiful lie that is (that is only fiction)
For the first time,
Im losing control and I like it.
Freedom feels like the noose is gone.