I Am Still Looking For A Decent Job.


People say.. once one enter the army...
It changes one.. for better or for worse...

I think its for worse for me!
hahaha.

I came out of the army and became more gu niang!
Ken say its coz of my army friends!
I dont know what is the reason.
Maybe i find it more peaceful.

Maybe its becoz of my army "family".
For those who dunno about this..
I have a wife (Weimin) and a son (Benny).
haha. both short short cute cute 1.
wait i go puke first.

Maybe its the nights in the jungle..
On the open hills during overseas...
The peaceful nights..
Where the family will gather together..
Do everything together..
Eat.. Sleep.. Defend.. Attack.. Relax.. Play..
Just like a family pack..
Be it wolves.. or bears.. or tigers..
Theres always the father looking after the mother and then the son..
The mother looking after the son and then the father..
The son creating havoc like nobody's business..

Before sleeping..
We would just set up a little campfire..
Just for fun.. and sometimes to scare away the insects..
Its also something for Benny the kid to play with..
hhahaa.

I remember the nights of just laying on the groundsheet..
Next to Weimin..
And Benny will want to come in between us..
All of us preparing to sleep..
Then Weimin will say something damn "mushy" AKA er xin.
Then we will all watch the stars..
And the beautiful scenery of the pretty town...
And occassionally the train passing across..
And the unforgetable "icecream" truck(plays the music like icecream truck) which is also taiwan's garbage truck..

Through the night..
Sometimes i will wake up and feel that something is not right..
And when i open my eyes..
I see Weimin sleeping so close to me..
And Benny will be behind him being close to him too..
All cuddling up behind me.. (what the hell.)

The night would be so cold for them (sometimes for me too)..
And they start to shiver..
Benny as usual.. being like a kid..
Will not be covered up with his jacket..
And then shiver like dog..
Weimin is a light sleeper..
So when i wake up..
He also will wake up..
Then sometimes give him my jacket loh...
If too cold.. then seriously....
You will see us really cuddling.. hahaha..

Got one time i ask him..
Why everytime i turn around and u will be sleeping so close to me...
He just replied.. Coz u bigger size mah.. more warmer.. block the cold wind for him too..
haha.. asshole.

Why am i so sensitive now..
Why am i becoming like a girl..
Why Why Why..

The army is suppose to train out soldiers..
Boys to Men...
What the hell ?
Im just an case study that went wrong.

But it only happens at night...
In the day i become a different person..
In the day like a soldier.. Commanding and Performing at my best..
In the night like ah gua.. Taking care of the "family".. of guys!
Hah.
Shit?
Did i want to have a family till like that?
Si bei jialat.


And now I just feel like listening to piano music.
Jialat.
Where are the times where i just watch horror movies and get a kick out of it..
Now i just hid too ! hahahahhaa!
Times have changed.
The old me have been overshadowed..
The new ah gua me is now in play..

Do i really have spilt personality??

What an interesting post..........
I wonder what shitty replies i will get..

Hahahaha..